I said I had to take a break so I did, except it wasn't really a break. September was kind of horrible in a lot of ways. Lots of personal stuff, more than our fair share of "accidents" involving the kids, even a trip to the emergency room. Combine that with all of the crap online especially surrounding publishing and it became clear I needed to take a step back before I flipped out. Aside from the personal stuff, all of the online stuff was beginning to really suck the fun out of writing. The same arguments are overdone, the same complaints about reviews are tiring. The freaky sock puppetry scares me, quite frankly. I started this out of a love of writing, not money or sales or a legitimate reputation and definitely not other people's drama, so why am I getting involved in other crap that I don't even truly care about?
Worse, I was putting "other crap" before my responsibilities at home and that resulted in a chaotic month so I need to straighten my priorities again. Aside from that, I haven't heeded warnings about looking after my own health and payback is overdue but that's my own fault and I'm trying to remember to take care of myself properly. LOL During my time off, I dealt with a number of ongoing things and am working on others so life in general is settling down. Writing wise, I finished the first draft of Thirst and started on the sequel because I didn't want it to end. Then, I realised that story wasn't really the second story after all and left that on the backburner and began a brand new sequel which right now fits much better in my long-term plan for that world. I'm writing for me right now and it's making me happy again. I've gotten way too sucked into the business side of things (which I'm no good at) so it's been nice to go back to what it's all really about for me. I even read an entire book last night, something I've been having a lot of trouble with.
Not everything is back to normal. There are still some major things that need to be sorted so I'm not committing to throwing myself back into the midst of everything. But hopefully October will be a lot less problematic and a lot more fun. The month begins well (my twins are 2 on Sunday) and ends with Halloween, what's not to like?
Now I'm off to do some edits while I feed the baby (multi-tasking or what) and hopefully quit moaning on my blog. ;)
I know how you feel, esp. about the online writing aspect.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're heading back to your priorities.
Write on!
Thanks Kae! Yeah, it can get overwhelming at times. Sometimes I lose the point of what I'm doing. :/
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